Disgrace

slapping, shoving, punching –
that’s all we have left
the screaming, yelling –
we’ve forgotten how to talk

you never believed in me –
not once in all these years –
i was just your disgrace to
hide in a closet

we fight, we argue –
it never ends –
and you wonder where that
look of fear came from

you never believed –
not when he hurt me, not
when i almost died –
i was just your disgrace

you point, you accuse –
you never comfort –
a hug is something held for
only those you love

once you said your biggest mistake
was bringing a daughter into the world –
while i cowered in the corner,
my soul ripped from my body

so now we’re here –
estranged with no way back –
and you cry and accuse,
telling me it’s all my fault

the yelling, the fighting –
it’s all we have left –
because i was just the disgrace
you wanted hidden forever